“I’m an 18 year old girl and I have dreams”
I have an inborn cataract. When I was young, I’ve been through two eye-operations already. Because of this eyesight problem, I was force to wear thick glasses even in my young age. And because of this, I had a rough elementary days. Some of my classmates back then were bullies. They kept calling me “Bulding” (an ilocano name for blind) I was always bullied everyday. So I never really had a fun child hood days.
When I started high school. It was really hard to fit in. Every students who passed me by, always have that look in their eyes like they were telling how ugly I am. My glasses makes my eyes looks so big that oftens make others laugh at me. It was really hard.
One of my hardest problem too was the seating arrangement at school. Since my last name starts with ‘T’ . I was always forced to sit in the back. I could hardly see the letters in the black board. So I can’t help but to stand up and squat infront of the others.
Now, I’m facing another problem.
My left eye could no longer see. Its totally blurred. (Even with glasses) I’m now only depending on my right eye. But I could not tell how long can my right eye help me.
We’re not that rich so we can’t afford to have an eye transplant. So some says, sooner or maybe later, I’ll wake up in the dark. When I lost my vission I won’t be able to see the beautiful colors of the world. I will no longer determine if its morning or night. It will be always nught. I won’t be able to write my stories or read books. I’ll be a burden to my familly. No man will love me. Its a nightmare that will possibly happen
I’m still 18 and I’ll be in third year College soon. Some people tells me to give up already since I’ll be blind sooner or later. What’s the use of studying if I’ll be blind in the future?
I don’t know why. But I want to study. Maybe my eyes will be blind soon. But I don’t wanna stop going to school. I have dreams and as long as I can still see. I won’t stop praying for my dreams to come true. I’ll enjoy life as long as I can still see.
Scared that one day darkness will wrap my life.
I hope. Anyone could help me.